Though it seems I had come to my demise, I assure you all, I am still here. Ive been distant, recently... I've nearly given up everything I have worked for. I have lost sight of what all of what I have wanted. And, though, yes, I wish to leave at times, I have wished death upon myself and others. Yes, I have nearly given up. I am still here though. And though time and time again, I have betrayed so many, I will not let that stand in the way of my escapism. I will leave this place, I assure you of that. These people cannot keep me chained down. I will avenge all of the horrors that have crossed me. Cyndi's death will not be the end of me, Leezi's departure from my life will not hurt me this way any more. I know I have nearly lost it all, but I still have myself. Not much left of me, might I add, but, still, here I am. Every drop of blood that has been spilled within these years, have coagulated. They matter no more. The dreams that have been shattered, have been thrown out. They matter no more. In all my years of trying to restore the life I once had, I have decided it is no longer what I want. To dwell on what I once had will do no good. I will accept and never forget what had happened to my dear sister. It is my fault she is gone, but I have come to accept to fate that she so dearly met. With this outlook on life though, often being contradictory, I've been left with no choice but to, as well, just accept it. Of all things I have done, leading Cyndi to her death, is the worst. I do apologise, about this.