my, oh, my... it seems i have not visited my own blog in a few days. well, i am indeed alive. though, i have been feeling rather ill recently. for sheer moments i had felt that i may have contemplated, or had, suicide/suiciadal thoughts. school has not been of much entertainment. many people have made impolite comments regarding my life, and personal choices.

today, i had an obscure experience. i saw a dead cat on the side walk, whilst walking home from school. i picked it up, it was a very unpleasant smell, and to hold the same suffering of the poor animal, i sliced my upper thigh open with a german ice tempered blade. i only did this so i could remind myself of the similarities we hold between roadkill. we are animals, and we bleed.